juliana spahr & shania twain, 2014
About a month ago, Sophia Katz told me she was raped by a former friend and roommate of mine when she visited New York this past May. Yesterday, she published a piece chronicling the sexual abuse she experienced that week, using a pseudonym for her rapist. I shared the piece on multiple platforms and commended her bravery. I said, “This is very important, everyone should read this.” I said “We need to protect and support rape victims, defend young girls in the indie lit community against predatorial, privileged men.” Other people liked the post, shared it, added more supportive comments. But by the end of the day, there was no further discussion about it. No one asked who he is, even though he is an editor within a community we all participate in.
And then I realized, I hadn’t either.
I had felt afraid of ‘starting that war’ against him. I realized that maybe people were afraid to ask who he was because they already knew. Maybe he was someone they considered a friend. Maybe identifying him as a rapist made them uncomfortable and sad. Maybe they didn’t believe it.
I lived with this person for a year. I listened to the way he spoke about his exgirlfriend after she broke up with him. I listened when he told me he “didn’t see the point of hanging out with any of his female friends” because at the end of the day he doesn’t get to fuck them. I pulled my piece from his magazine that he had solicited me for because I no longer wanted to support the career of a casual misogynist.
We shouldn’t be afraid to discuss this publicly when Sophia has been brave enough to call out her abuser in a community where he has immense support and friendship. Stephen Tully Dierks should not be shielded because he is or was our friend. We should hold our friends as accountable as we hold everyone else, if not more.
i have in the past been associated w stephen tully dierks & pop serial but absolutely no longer wish 2 b. please spread sarah’s post. i am so disappointed in the male members of my various creative communities lately. women cant even feel safe in these purportedly “progressive” spaces. god fucking damnit.
He is water http://ift.tt/1nmvYFR
dont u just want 2 look at this lil cherub
this lil angel
"desperate living" by Cassandra Gillig, now available at http://perfectloverspress.com
on duke ellington’s birthday by diane ward
omg the recording of me reading at segue w/ my lord & savior alice notley is now on pennsound & i am linking to it here only bc trisha low wrote me the best introduction i will ever have in my entire stupid life of weeping & pining 4 poetry, so u sld go listen to the first few min & then go to like the 1 hr mark & hear alice
i am so lucky 2 have trisha low in my life god bless trisha wherever she is & i hope i get 2 talk 2 her soon bc i miss her so much
am often asked what ppl sld read first of hers, especially since there’s such a large amt of work online. patrick durgin, a wonderful amazing genius angel, scanned several of weiner’s journals & put them online via UCSD, the site of her archives. u can read his introduction here but it is also a bit of a dense thing, so i recommend (if u dont have the time) just checking out COUNTRY GIRL, 1 of my favorite things by her. i think the thing that has remained the most appealing2 me abt hannahs work is the way that her descriptions of mysterious & frrustrating bodily pain align w my own (as a person who has chronic pancreatitis) but i think that this is kind of a universal thing, waking up one day & not understanding a certain aspect of yr body & trying to figure it out—trying 2 understand this rlly imposibly vague message that pain sends u. or just trying 2 cope w having a body & living inside it & making all of these weird choices abt what to do to or w/ yr body. so its abt the maintenance of the body rather than simply the experience of a body, which is rarer in poetry & writing outside of distantseeming, silly self-help books or cookbooks & stuff. i think hannah has a wonderful strange sense of humor too that slowly surfaces thru atypical syntax or juxtaposition. if u like country girl, i suggest u look into the book patrick edited of hannah’s work that serves as a kind of selected poems—(heres the pdf preview of that).
mat laporte made this rlly good berrigan/caribou mash-up & it is great i am listening to it for the second time in a row i love listening to music
i forgot also how good “penn station” by ted berrigan is
EDIT: lol i wrote “i love listening to music” what??