yo i just had such a—for real—crazy week, like, just reading to this incredible & receptive room of people & this table full of demi-gods in the front row & then my all-time hero in the corner of the room & seeing everyone again in the same place & feeling good about poetry & thinking maybe that there is a good reason to keep doing all of these things i do
so here is what i’m up to next. sat & tues i’ll be at poets house for the insane george schneeman thing going on & the notley lecture. on sunday im cohosting a reading at the zinc bar with two of the poets in town for the schneeman things—maureen owen & harris schiff—& local poet mali scott. if yr in NYC pls look into these things bc if you follow the work i do it’s likely up yr alley.
i am done with school on may 9 (if u have a job fr someone w a BA in english u kno where 2 reach me) & doing a kind of disgusting amount of NYC readings in may, which i’m very sorry about. i agree to things without realizing sometimes. im trying to make each reading really different. im reading may 9 for multifarious array w my cover band margaritaville. im umpiring a baseball reading may 10. may 15 im reading at the greetings series at unnameable with brenda iijima—we have a hiatus-y collaboration & are writing a musical abt swans i think. im reading for a shabby doll house thing on may 24. im reading at the poetry project on may 30 which is really terribly exciting & one of my dreams, i guess? like, after the first half of this year, i will have done everything i could have ever possibly dreamed of doing as a nyc poet (or really a poet in general) & i guess that’s what’s making it okay for me to move away from here.
i will be living for most of may in manhattan w a super generous poet friend & then i’m spending june-august in brunswick, maine which i haven’t really told ppl about yet bc it seems not real that i’ll be actually on the move for the foreseeable future. in early september i’m doing a reading at miami university & am hoping to stay for a while in ohio & visit my family/friends again in chicago & i will be in california for october & i don’t know what’s next after that. right now im scheduled to co-host segue for april/may 2015 so it looks like i will be back in nyc for at least then.
basically i will b traveling around as long as i can before i need to settle. if youd like to host me on a couch or floor sometime in the next year, let me know. & as for the stuff ill actually b doing… ill b spending more time working on big lucks because ive been slacking & mark has been patient. im hoping to start my own press soon, same text, which wld be reprinting necessary texts & publishing new “academic” things that dont fit into the interests of traditional publishing houses fr that sort of thing. i am in talks w a few other really great people abt what things we are going to do to fix this hannah weiner drought. im doing some things for the poetry project. im helping to archive things for tender buttons press. im interviewing ppl & looking through older poets’ archives to help them preserve things. i don’t know. it helps for me to type these things out sometimes, so that is what i did. if u r interested in any of this, shoot me an email gillig.cassandra at gmail. if u have any tips for me doing any of these things, id love to hear them. im not really so certain abt anything. i am very nervous bc im an organized person but am pushing myself to plan less so i can take advantage of the opportunities i have.
to celebrate my graduation im buying a portable scanner & going to the dentist. xoxo into infinity ~~
“I put my presser foot on your needle bar and the bobbin winder quickly spins, the needle and shutter are doing something, there’s the necessary spool of thread, it is described as the attraction of individuals of one sex for those of the other but it isnt always that, dictionaries are not full of truth but languages and their histories, attempted sex, alleged sex in 1982, to cut to divide to instigate querulous sex on a ship, sex also in the seraglio, really an enclosure, the word is a person & there is laughter from secare to cut maybe see segment or secant a piece cut off, my presser foot extends from the needle bar or of course it could be anything, a line that cuts another or that cuts a circle to cut and to hew see saw scythe sickle. Sex in rampant pins, there are eight possible sexes each viewed collectively, sex is a bobbin, it is bimotored like some of the older airplanes, it is at least bled boom and all else biagmist bond and boarder, it’s boil and bodice oh father I am so sorry (bobbery) see cant or see cunt, you remember, mathematics, of threes and thees, I dont know which line it was but it was cutting outside the circle into a triangle this is sex or not, you have two eyes.” - Bernadette Mayer, from “Sex Was Near a Sewing Machine” in UTOPIA (1984)”
im thinking abt all of the poets i needed to meet before i met thee poets i know now those poets being cean gamalinda in high school & mason johnson, russ woods, john galvin, & kathleen rooney in chicago & then david pritchard online & dana ward who introduced me to nat otting & it feels like if i didnt meet any of those people maybe even just 1 person i would be completely different & now im writing my paper about dana’s work for class that is five weeks late